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Love is Complicated...
" I shall let Love come and go easily in life, maybe then I won't be that hurt. "
Yeap, as what the title says... Being in love is really complicated. I really don't understand certain things about love. I shall never go into one I guess, after this incident... Developing feelings for this girl at Sec 2, Tried to get together but she wasn't ready. I told her I would wait. Sec 3 she tried to get together with me, but I wasn't ready. Always regretted that decision I made. -.- So for the whole of my Sec 4 we did interact often. We knew we liked each other, but something I never wanted to happen, happened... We go for badminton with our friends every Friday. So slowly, she started to text my very close buddy. Didn't expect them to develop feelings for each other. Was a shock to me. I couldn't take it. I had a feeling that even words can't even explain. Many sleepless nights and couldn't concentrate in doing anything. But since this already happened, all I want is my best buddy and the person I love to be happy. So I chose to tell her that I should give her up. Up till now, I have been trying all ways to be distracted. But always I couldn't. There is always something that I do that will remind me of her. I am really lost and confuse now. This feeling sucks. But I can say I felt a little better when my dearest friends Jeremy Chui and Sheryl Toh understands me and affirm me in their own ways. They helped to see things in a different way. Although its hard, I am trying to. Trying to do all I can to give her up. Like what Sheryl said, " Time doesn't heal when you are not ready to move on. " So maybe I should move on although it might not easy, but I believe i will be able to? I don't know. God has a plans for me in His own special ways. I shall just summit to it. Because of this, I tell myself that I do not want to be this hurt already. So I shall get into any relationship until I think I am ready. I shall be like how I am now and do what I like. And also I shall never love someone so deep already. I don't know if I am doing it right, but this is what I think. Not forgetting to thank my closest friend, Sheryl, for her blog post for me... Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone to hear me out. You really understand me and never fail to be there for me. You are one of my trusted and closest friend that I have known. I also hope I could be there to hear you out in your stress and problems in life. Like how you didn't forget our promise, I didn't too! So hope we could be as close as we were last time! Miss those times! :) Thank you. :) |
